I've been trying to keep my angst from my public life. But today I'm so tired and the feelings of anxiety and depression are too strong, I need to express them.

First I am so frustrated by MI. It looks like she is going to repeat Kindergarten. MI is determined not to learn to read. I know she knows her alphabet but she doesn't produce work that indicates that knowledge. I know she knows the sounds that are represented by those letters but she refuses to produce work that shows that knowledge. I know that there are simple words that she knows but when quizzed she refuses to cooperate.

What can I do about a child who won't work? I lie awake a night worrying about her future. What's to become of her? Why won't she cooperate at school? Why won't she cooperate at home?

Then that really gets everything churning. Everything seems so hopeless. Nothing is in my control. I can't even seem to control my own feelings. God. I've never cried so much in my life. In fact this seems to rate right up there with the OKC boot camp for librarians.

So I don't know what I'm going to do. Guess I just keep on crying.